A journey that one must face in their life

Chapter 3
"A journey that one must face in their life"

Life have its on ups and down. I went on a journey to the south of Malaysia which makes me notice that how I need to be strongly to have a strong heart and will to keep on walking towards my future. The amazing journey begins at late 2007. As for a start I make my way to Segamat with the fear of being so far away from home alone and yet I’m not alone at all. I was with Dyer. We walk side by side making sure every step we take are save and will not put our life in jeopardy.

The new beginners now are far from beginning line. They are now at the stage where they are going to stay at the middle line of the story of their life. How to carve them to be beautiful is what should be considered. It will start to play its role as the story teller.

Being there in the south sure does put a notice on how should one have to be carefully budgeting their money in order to manage their money well. Most of the time I never care much on how I spend my money. But after staying yet so far away from home, I begin to manage my money well. I started to distinguish between needs and wants. I only buy what I need only instead on things that I want. What a huge sacrifices. Nevertheless, I also enjoy things that I want once in awhile when ever I have to give a reward for my own self. (^ ^)v

To be honestly honest, I hate this stage of line. This is where I got hurt a lot. It seems to blend with my life perfectly and without any sign of stopping at all. First of all, I got into a trouble in choosing friends. They made me choose when I don’t wanna choose either of them to be the best. I just wanted to be friend with everyone. Then, secondly, I got news from home. This times its mom and dad. I was stuck in a dilemma which almost drives me into a misery. I got depressed. I couldn’t even hide it. I even almost lost myself in the depression. Then, lastly, it’s him, he who I loved most and he who broke my heart into pieces. Nevertheless, I’m not surprise at all with what I discover. It is as just as I thought it would be. In fact, I’m only sad, as sad as I could be for he promise to tell me the truth and yet he still lie. I already sense it but I was waiting for him to confess. And I guess confessing will never be his thing. Now I’m learning to take things seriously and hide my true feelings.

Most of the things happen help me to develop a wall which protects my heart from getting hurt again. I begin blocking others to come inside my heart once again. I start writing my story in my lappy. I begin to wonder alone and have fun with my friend. Beside that, I moved to another place to start my life over again. Finding peace at a new place. Meeting new people and knowing new things in life. Keeping my own self busy all the times so that I won’t feel sad or lonely as I can see a few of my friends take a huge step and be in a marriage life, having their own family and taking responsibility. The hardest things to watch would be being left behind by them. They never did leave me; it’s just that they have too many things to take care off until they have no time for friends anymore. It’s not their faults. Its how the world works honey.

Hence, never let yourself being left behind. Just follow the flow and InsyaAllah you may find yourself at peace and more relax. No one is leaving you behind Wanie. It is just your feeling of being insecure lately made you be uncomfortable with all situation that there is. Give yourself a break and give it a rest. There will be a day when you will learn to smile once again. There would be a rainbow toward the end of the road and you may enjoy it with big laugh and smile plus with happy tears. That day will make you forget the past and grow up with it. =)